It was around Halloween that I realized what I was doing.
Each time I’d see a little uplifting reminder float by on my Facebook feed….
I’d always finish it with, “….but you could get off your phone and do some of it.”
Because truly, sometimes it’s not an unreasonable to-do list or the busyness of a certain season. Sometimes, it’s just me being lazy.
I finally decided to do something about it.
The first baby-step was to deleting the two real estate apps off my phone. We have no intention of moving, and if a house pops up for sale “that I’ve always wondered what it looks like inside,” I can get on the computer. No more mindlessly scrolling through houses and suddenly realizing an hour has gone by: check.
The next step was scheduling an email check into my morning routine…on my laptop. I suddenly had a new goal of not being on my phone in the early morning, at all. Was that even possible? All I knew was that I didn’t want my four-year-old to grow up seeing me glued to my phone…..and I wanted to see my four-year-old grow up.
Next up: not faithfully keeping up with reading blogs. No more daily check-ins (though occasionally reading is definitely still happening). It occurred to me recently that I’m not trying to build a brand, launch a product, sell an item or make a name…..so why on earth do I feel a strange sense of obligation to keep up with this? No more.
The last step was deleting the Facebook app. I’d already made a decision, after an exceptionally good Halloween, that I wanted to take another break from Facebook; I wanted to enjoy the holiday season we were having instead of constantly being bombarded with other ideas and wondering if we should be doing things differently. This fall and winter have been so different from last year, as my son continues to climb out of depression. I want to enjoy it! I want to savor this time, not compare it to someone else’s holiday–or not even be truly present for it in the first place. Bye-bye, FB.
My mom and I had a conversation not that long ago about how technology has gone from a blessing to a nuisance. While I don’t want to get rid of the internet, I think the line that got crossed awhile back–that “smartphone” line–has turned something wonderful into something awful. I can objectively see the benefits of the internet. Right now, it’s hard for me to see the good in a smartphone.